Random Ramblings

Well, today was more or less a wash. Got very little accomplished, and I'm not too impressed with myself. Spent way too much time browsing websites, reading blogs and ignoring housework...and the beautiful fall day outside. I literally never left the house today, not even to run next door to see the parentals. It just hasn't been my day I guess.

I wonder if it doesn't have something to do with the amount I've smoked today, the past few days really. I think high amounts of nicotine is keeping me from doing what I want, making me tired, depressed, downright lethargic. I started the day off right, was in a fairly chipper mood (considering it was morning) and was rather ready to start my day. Then the nicotine monster reared its head...and very little got accomplished.

Did have a rather long conversation with my friend Draco and his wife, which is always nice. Draco and I talk about the most random things, with a healthy dose of picking on each other. We talk about everything under the sun, from programming and computer stuff, to religion, politics...nothing is taboo. Today was the antics of his wife...usually at his expense. The stories I could relate here...but I won't, because poor Draco would expire from embarrassment. He is the most easily embarrassed Scorpio I know!

Still haven't decided where my blog is going to stay. The majority of the people I know have Blogger accounts, so I might just stay here. Starting over, new blog, it could work out. It would mean recreating my holiday blog and photo blog though, but I wasn't that far into them. So it wouldn't be too difficult to just slide over here. No to do list blog though, that was highly dull. It was so stinkin dull that I didn't even want to post on it! Now that's boring...

So I'm debating starting over...again. I'm just not progressing like I should, I don't think I've really done much to change or grow in the past 5 years or so. I sometimes swear that I am still stuck in this "pre baby, pre "real world"" mentality...and its not getting me far at all.

Firefox is irritating me lately...it just crashed for about the 10th time today. What in the name of Hades is going on? I've never had a problem, and now suddenly its going haywire. Stupid blasted computers, thank the gods for autosave.

Now what was I saying before I was so rudely interrupted? Ahh yes, starting over. Tomorrow. Again. I seem to be stuck in who I was before my life took an interesting turn, and stuck in who I am not. But I'm not doing anything to get anywhere, just kind of spinning my heels and why me'ing. Rather pathetic if you ask me. What's even worse is I can see myself acting in this way, and while I mentally scream at myself, I don't do anything to change it. So I'm making the vow (again) to start changing those things I can...and removing that which I can't...

So once again, starting tomorrow, I'm starting a new life. It won't be perfect, but at least I can feel that I'm doing something...instead of being a spectator in my own life. Watch out world, here comes the new me!